Dark. Damn Odd

Um...

2008-12-18T19:28:00.000-08:00

Hello :\
um... this blog is gettin pretty messed up. oops.
Yeah the changing of blogskins has ruined my blog. I mean i LOVE the blogskin i have of the urban girl who truly belongs in the wild, so awesome. and it took me 4ever to alter the skin to make the background one of a forest. AWESOME. yeah well i can't find my older posts and i can't get comments so.. i guess im movin on to a diff blog with my original (more managable skin). It's called. http://www.broken-ipod.blogspot.com/

Sad i have to lose my cullenism. n e who im movin soon so i'll keep yall (my friends who actually read my blog) in touch. I'll tell ya what it's gona be like :). so yeah. c ya! goodbye loonycullen :'(

Question : U team Edward or team Jacob? haha i love both teams. but Edward all the way XD

Dummy

2008-12-15T22:18:00.000-08:00

Dummy

I'd have to be a fool to believe
Every word you said

And i don't wanna be your dummy
I cut the strings and i'm free, honey
I don't want your fast-life
Or your money or your time

So stuck on yourself, it's funny
Hangin' with you feels so crummy
So i don't wanna be your dummy
Da dummy, da dummy

Your showing off screaming on your cell phone
I wonder why I didn't see it then
You spend hours and hours trying to make your hair look sloppy
You spend hundreds of dollars on a tee-shirt you wear
For the week that it's "in"
Now that we're apart I wonder if you miss a thing

And if your asking then the last thing
I wanna be is a puppet on a string
You're unbelievable- it's inconceivable
If you think I'll let you make a fool of me

~ Dummy - emma roberts

I'm beginning to rly like this song.

Prom

2008-12-14T22:50:00.000-08:00

PROM

Hmmm the last day of schl was depressing. Well, the leaving of friends bit n e way. So moving on, prom... it was interesting. O yeah and sonali, adri and jazzie... THANKS sorry i think i did thank u guys tho. but seriously u guys helped alot. AND i'm gona be missin the hella u guys. THANKS THANKS THANKS 2 yall. O yeah and THANKS To DUSTIN - U are a super awesome friend dude. Even tho we just started talking 'really' talking for bout a yr. Sorry i dint dance with u dude. I rly wanted to. ... Question: y dint u want to dance with me when i asked u? But sonali, adri and jazz told me u supported me and sam so YaY go DUSTIN! i'm gona miss u my odd dude friend :) o yeah. And sorry to u guys that my goodbyes were so rushed. Especially my good friends. My ride... was bout to leave me behind haha. and to comment on sonali's blog it's completely true bout the no motivation thing. Thanks for pointin that out i don't think i would have realized. Slow songs r pretty cool. haha and guys sorry i made yall 'explode with joy'... i dint think ud take it so seriously. :] but thanks again. And yay finaly got it off my chest. It was totly the right thing to do, confess. Keepin that secret all through the rest of my schl life is pretty freaky. RACHEL & ADRIENNE STOP CRYING ON ME hehe i can't stand it when ppl cry it makes me feel depressed. I love u all :) i'll keep in touch my friends.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IM LEAVIN. Hell no don't wanna go. Actually... i only miss my friends and some others. so Everythin else... seemed suckish enough so a new start would be pretty okay. Gona miss u guys! sobin on the inside. who knows maybe i'll meet yall again. Better keep in touch. Pls don't go all lovey dovey on me in msn friends... it's hard to type happy words... if that makes sense. n e who gona end this post. U know how i feel on the inside. i just can't express it in typin. :) SO THAANKS AND SORRY DUSTIN RLY!

ps. does n e one know how to put a vid made on windows movie maker onto youtube?

Inspire

2008-12-13T22:56:00.000-08:00

INSPIRATION

Don't stay down. Get inspired. people open your eyes and wake up :J

Crap

2008-12-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

Rest In Peace Grandpa.
2 deaths in a day.
EVERYONE I LOVE AROUND ME IS DYING!!!
Crap today is the deadliest day of my life <'(

November 7th - Death Day

I dedicate these songs to u Im & Grandpa

Your hand in mine - Explosions in the sky
First breath after coma - Explosions in the sky

Stay in heaven, love u all.

GOOD FRIEND

2008-12-06T22:59:00.000-08:00

Rest In Peace, Im.
U were an awesome pal. :(
God she's only 15..

Stay in heaven..

crushcrushcrush

2008-12-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

GROWLLL skins are confusin to change. Damn blog why ya gotta be so complicated. n e who... mroe lyrics :) ooo yeah twilight came out. havn't watched it yet but i have a feelin it sucks. Heard they cut out loads of parts and it's a cinema... oh well

I got a lot to say to you

Yeah, I got a lot to say

I noticed your eyes are always glued to me

Keeping them here

And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth

Scribbled out the truth with their lies

You little spies

CrushCrushCrush

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone

Just the one-two of us, who's counting on

That never happensI guess I'm dreaming again

Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game

Well, come on, come on, let's play

Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending

Than have to forget you for one whole minute

~crushcrushcrush - paramore <3

sigh..

2008-11-30T04:09:00.000-08:00

ok. Dec 10, 11, 12.. gona be one hella depressin times. Gona miss you guys. :'{ alot. well some of you guys... haha yeah loads of meanies out there. well thats life so what the heck. love you guys that im gona miss. so damn soon man! < 'C dammit why.

LOVES YOU SONALI gammit im gona miss u like hell

Thanks Dustin

2008-11-30T04:08:00.001-08:00

woooo. problem solved. my quest for that song ( don't let go - crowned kings) is over. :) thnks to... Dustin!

2008-11-25T05:05:00.000-08:00

If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything than it’s me

So sleep now, so deep in static

Drifting in the shadows

Hold me close to the fourwall headlights

And TV screens

I just want you to feel beautiful

For once in your life

~ JamisonParker

want this song

2008-11-23T06:46:00.000-08:00

When it all comes crashing down,
And your world starts spinnin' round,
You feel like you've fallen from the clouds,
But you never hit the ground

So take this stretch of road,
We'll call it home,
Just run away with me tonight,
Just don't let go, of me

Can love like ours survive,
In such cold and uncertain times?
I know that if you only hold me tight,
We can make it through tonight

So let's run on down the interstate,
And across the sea,
Everywhere I go,
I want to take you with me

don't let go, of me
don't let go, of me
And I close my eyes,
And I think of you,
We're gonna make it babe,
We're gonna make it through
Just don't let go

Underneath black velvet skies,
Forever in your eyes,
I see reflexions of your light,
Just dance with me tonight

Over head the sky explodes,
And my heart it overloads
Throw your arms around my neck and don't let go

We'll take this stretch of road,
We'll call it home,
Just run away with me,
Just don't let go, of me

~ Don't let go - Crowned Kings

Whoever finds this song for me, i owe u. alot.
I can't find this song n e where... pls help me.

my escape

2008-11-18T06:29:00.000-08:00

Escape never felt more like a loss

Tagged.

2008-11-14T05:26:00.000-08:00

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Lock myself up, swear at myself, cry, sit cross legged and stare blankly at nothing for and hour of more with wet eyes, think about my mistakes, fall asleep after long stare coz it is rly tiring, wake up and be depressed again, maybe cry a little, then slap myself and get pissed, yell at myself and tell myself to wake up and snap out of it. Then i'll go look for him, give up on him, dump him, tell him all the reasons i was wrong bout dating him and tell him how much he sucks, then i'd walk away with a hoddy over my head and be alone before recovering listening to my ipod.

What will your dream wedding be like?
On a meadow or something peaceful like that, hardly any people there, the sky orangish - u know that time when the sun is not exactly setting but it aint bright just like mellow getting darker, should be trees, not some freakin retardedly heavy dress with that super long white trailing thing, simple dress thats still beautiful, nice music, no organs... those things sound dreadful to me... no sick food. Just me, my dream guy, super close friends, parents and my dogs... that's perfect..

On your wedding day, what would you like to see?
... uh, my future husband to be...
"... wait what the.. Where's my husband!?"
Lol that's funny.

Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Let's not think about it, yeah. The future's the future. It's pretty scary. hm.. to me the future is like walking up a flight of stairs, and you know how ur always scared you'll miss a step, coz when u do u stumble and your heart gets this super fast panging feeling, shocking, and you'll eventually reach the end of the stairs... so i guess we just gotta watch out for those miss steps along the way, eh. Unless they unexpectedly break under your feet. You just gotta brace yourselves for that. That's life.

What’s your ideal lover like?
I love edward cullen. but you know he's fictional so it's quite depressing. but i duno. A nice person? i don't like drugs or smokers. I'm attracted to shy guys... and i don't know why. hate liars and show offs. I like quiet people that can help you out with your problems and listen to you. and not judge you. I like someone i can feel equal with as in when i'm with that person we both connect and the world is just a distant nagging at the back of our heads. But nowadays... i'm attracted to the sight of guys in dark clothing, seeming dark(almost scary lookin) leaning against a wall keeping to himself. I wanna be with a dude like that and crack all those mysteries which hide behind his eyes.

i know i'm mad. but don't worry. I'm bein single and not mindin it.

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Just live life still obssessin over the dude becoming even more depressed by the week watchin him with the girl. until sometin dramatic happens and i'm forced to move on or i get a sudden change of heart. rare... yeah, i find things hard to let go of.

Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yea.

How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
um... nope got notin. my mind is blank, still at the bottom of the stairs.

Who are currently the most important people to you?
My parents and the people that can comfort me in my time of need as i go through this unexplainable phase.

Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
I dont know. Money can't buy happiness. and i guess having a lover is great. so i guess bein married. if we die broke. we die happy.

What’s the first thing you do every morning?
wake up.

Would you give all in a relationship?
depends..

If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one i love. how can one be equally in love with two?

What type of friends do you like?
friends that laugh and can console me no matter what.

What type of friends do you dislike?
Most friends... u know what i mean. close enough.

Are you a virgin?
yeah, why aren't you... the new generation nowadays is sad.

Have you ever lied to your parents?
Mum are you reading this...?
haha kiddin yeah i have. unfortunately.

Hint about him / her?
hint about what? what is this question talking about...

What phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?
What!?
Huuuuuuuhhhh?
say that again?
Holy sh**!
HOLY COW!
HOOOOOOOOOOLLLLYYYYYYY!
Why did u just tell me that?
DID I REALLY NEED TO KNOW?
you serious?

What is your current obssesion?
wolves, emo guys, music, faeries, odd things, neon lights, light graffitti, strange paintings, unexplainable colourful occurences, gardens, alone and thinking.

Who do you short text the most these days?
oh, are people supposed to text alot nowadays? ... oops.
yeah yeah. who cares about texting and phones. i don't.

Who do you miss alot now?
One of my best friends, and my dog Mac - RIP loofy loves you.

Best girl friends?
Donno. i had alot that left me at the last minute... hope that don't happen again. so i'm staying cautious.

Best boy friends?
no - one.

Favourite hang out place?
my garden, alone, twilight time, or a quiet meadow. away from civilization... or a place where i can close my eyes and feel that the world is going on with or without me. peace.

If you were to go out with a group of friends, who will you choose?
In this case... i'll stay unsociable. I'm not a kind of friend that can choose like that. sorry.

Made any new friends recently?
nope.

Do you like the person who tagged you?
*shrugs* maybe. why am i supposed to?

ughhh grrr.

2008-11-14T05:11:00.000-08:00

BUAAAAAAAAGH!
Sorry just gotta type this. Shouldn't have come online today.... SHOULDNT HAVE READ THAT SH**

Too pissed to speak. typing instead. GOSH this is y i love being alone. I seriously admit, i really really really ----------- hate ------------ and ------------ for ----- becoz---- all such -------!!!!

sigh. Freakin hell. y do i sound emo!? i am not emo k. Well i don't think i am so y are all my post all corrupted. AHH. sigh

Chill dude chill. coolin. Wanna be alone. Don't wanna ever meet people like these ever again. I didn't even do n e tin! tried not to be involved with other people... but they always have to involve me somehow! What did i do . SHEESH

Ms Rao was totaly right today. With her whole people terrible sucks they r such. Yeah well life is so sh** im sorry. Love u sonali. Only one left for me. Shoot all u. >[ <(

dammit now im pissed and depressed. sorry im yellin at... some of u people that r good. UGH. so many problems. i like friends. but i also like to be alone. please leave me for now. c u guys soon k bye. pls pls pls... dudes, thnx for bein all awesome to me and all and pls don't let me make u sad k. Last thing i wanna do. Just seriously stay happy. :\

people are very mean nowadays... even the ones i don't know. (how the hell they know me. they shud go away.)

ipaepvj caopwjfo vqo; wjq !!!@!!@!@!

Forgotten and waiting...

2008-11-11T04:47:00.001-08:00

Like a princess

In a forgotten fairytale

Waiting for her prince...

~Dreamland

Another song i love <3

2008-11-08T20:39:00.000-08:00

Lyrics | Paramore - Let The Flames Begin lyrics

Don't let your heart win

2008-11-08T20:27:00.000-08:00

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...
Well I was wrong

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try... holding onto silly things, I never learn.

I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

~ That's what you get - paramore

Here we go again

2008-11-08T01:00:00.000-08:00

And here we go again

With all the things you said

And not a minute spent

To think that we'd regret

So we just take it back,

These words and hold our breath

Forget the things we swore we meant

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright

Can't say I'm sad to see you go

Cause I'm not.

And here we go again

With all the things we did

And now I'm wondering

Just who would I have been

Forget the things we swore we meant.

~Here we go again - paramore

We are broken

2008-11-08T00:19:00.000-08:00

I am outside

And i've been waiting for the sun

And i've seen worlds that don't belong

Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me

Coz we are broken

What must we do to restore

our innocence

And the promise we adored

Give us life again

Coz we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors

Coz i'd like to capture this voice

We're at war, we live like this

Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

~We are broken - Paramore

WeTheFreak

2008-11-07T07:21:00.000-08:00

Hey dudes,
Check me out on youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/user/WeTheFreak

:D

@ Sonals

2008-11-06T21:37:00.000-08:00

Awesome fun time at sonali's place.
We made 2 vids this time :D Yea but the 2nd vid aint quite finished. We still need to do the singing voice over. And i gotta find good tabs for the song. :( o well.

We did wierd stuff as usual. Stayed up till 4 am makin the vid. oops. Well it was fun.

Lol o yeah we watched High School Musical 3. And i thought it was pretty cool. We kept on laughin in the cinema... at random stuff and people were just like ... what the hell. HAHA but yeah. Loads of people are like "OMG ew... High School Musical is like... so GAY..." and i'm just thinking " Dude... just admit that u r secretly obssessed with it, coz i know that after school your just gona pay 10 bux to go and watch it. I am not fooled."

Sigh people now adays.
Lol and it's pretty funny to watch people's reactions when i reply to that and say "well i wanna watch it. I don't think it's gay. :P" and they get pissed and walk off.

And dudes... who cares what people say. I don't... well not always. But seriously don't let people control you coz u know that that's your opinion and not theirs so yeah. DEAL WITH IT.

YEAh in the video we were like immitating Lords of the Ring, Harry Potter and others. And being weird ^^. IT was AWESOME. But it sux that when posted on youtube the vid becomes rly blur. and the high qual link has disappeared...

And hell yeah i'm being the bad-ass version of Cho Chang. No offence to her. but yeah its for the vid and its pretty cool. :D check it out on youtube.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Euq95Vv0iqm

Good times good times. FUN

P.s: sonali... I'M DOLORES IN DISQUISE LOLOLOLOL.

safe place

2008-11-02T20:05:00.000-08:00

You clean up so nice.

A gentle face I couldn’t recognize

There’s blood in your eyes

I knew that someone had to pay your price

Shelter, a safe place

I couldn’t find a way to escape

There’s blood on your face

I wish that there could be another way.

You kiss and make nice.

A gentle face with a big surprise

There’s blood in your eyes

I knew that I was going to pay the price

Shelter, isn’t safe

I couldn’t find a way to escape

There’s blood on your face

You couldn’t have it any other way.

Is this what it seems?

Am I make believe?

Watching through your eyes
I’m running out of time

~blood- sparklemotion

for a few hours

2008-11-02T19:25:00.000-08:00

Come With Me

Into The Tree's

we'll lay on the grass

And let the hours pass

Take My Hand

Come Back To The Land

Let's Get Away

Just for one day.

Let Me See You Stripped Down to the bone

Let me Hear you Speaking Just For Me

Let me see you

Stripped Down to the bone

Let Me Hear you

Crying just for me

Let Me hear you speaking

just for me.

Metropolis

Has Nothing on This

You're Breathing in fumes

I taste when we kiss

Take My Hand

Come Back To The Land

Where Everything's Ours

For a Few Hours

~stripped - Shiny Toy Guns

Halloween

2008-11-02T01:25:00.000-07:00

I wish every celebration was meant to be halloween...

lets see... my place w as full of wierd people

My brother hung a doll by the fan which was pretty freaky

treak or treated for the night.
told scary stories,
watched scary movies,

went to the park round 11 and the park swings were scary. FREAKIN dark. (what happened to the streetlights) stayed there for bout 15 min then ditched the place and ran for it haha.

played tarots... god who knew they could be so precise... yes that did freak us out 2

Brandon and friends egged someones house coz they ignored us... we ran for it. like hell...

lol saw a few houses being toilet papered, lol then began continuously ringin bells of houses that dint give us candy... we ran for it, again. DING DONG DITCHIN IS FUN

started howling at Venus. talked bout this crazed man that lived in my friends neighbourhood... *shudders*

went to basketball court late at night. neighbourhood was so quiet. played truth or dare. talked bout secrets and stuff. had races. singin. slept at 3 am. lol woke up in the mornin at 9 and went to the park again.

Later Brandon, Sarah, my bro and I climbed up this hill. We had

to climb over the fence. I never knew what was behind it till now. i think it was out of bounds coz we heard an alarm go off somewhere at the top of the hill and ran back down. Those flood stairs are steep... ran into a bunch of ants lol and started screaming coz they were climbing up our arms and legs. We watched out for snakes. good thing we didnt see one. loads of mosqiuts. kinda freaky tho lookin down... we were so high.

hello emo boy

2008-10-24T05:11:00.000-07:00

Dear emo boy,

please don't walk away from me,

I'm tired of chasing,

even though your not hiding.

hello.

But why am i the one running

open up your ears, and listen

2008-10-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

The world is speaking to you everyday,
You just don't always know how to listen.

~Dreamland

Trust?

2008-10-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

"Trust me."
Those 2 words had gotten me into more trouble than i cared to remember.

~Dreamland

yeah...

2008-10-24T04:24:00.000-07:00

hey CH,
you can have Rice. :)
I'm cool with it. He aint for me anyway. just gona go with the flow now and maybe i'll spend more time with 'emo'. awesome. keepin things simple haha. Good Luck.

I got the warning

2008-10-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

All of my memories keep you near
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.

~Memories - within temptation

myself

2008-10-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

What if you, could only speak the truth,
what would you say?

Time doesn't wait for anyone.

There's a part in everyday,
where I lie to myself and say that it's okay.
'cause if I don't I think I'll go insane.
But the truth is,
I only have myself to blame.

~The Truth - The Spill Canvas

Breakeven

2008-10-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

Cos I got time while he got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
His best days will be some of my worst
While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
what am I suppose to say when i'm all choked up and you're OK
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop me bleeding
Cos he moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it dont break even

~ Breakeven - The Script

These Damn Things

2008-10-21T07:51:00.000-07:00

Don’t keep yourself away
Don’t live your life that way
Don’t put yourself back in the fire again

It’s the same damn things you’re so quick to believe
You do it over and over again
And it’s the same mistakes that I’m watching you make
You do it over and over again

So before they bring you down
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything

Cause they’ll bring you down

Oh, please don’t be so naïve
Don’t wait ‘till your heart bleeds
Love wasn’t built for speed

Time doesn't wait for anyone.

~Fall for anything - The Script

Please don't get me wrong

2008-10-18T01:38:00.000-07:00

Don't get me wrong. You think i want him. But i wanted you. We're just goin coz u misunderstood. It's you.

But always Edward.

You're worth it

2008-10-18T01:32:00.000-07:00

There are things in this world
That I don't understand
Like love, war, gravity
Or the lay of the land
But all of these, remain mysteries
One thing is for sure
You are worth living for.

~ One thing is for sure - The Spill Canvas

Say you're weak,
But i'm weaker
and i say
You're still the soldier in my eyes

~I'm yours - The Script

cos if you go, i go

2008-10-18T01:27:00.000-07:00

Gonna use my heart and not my head
And try to open up your eyes
This is a relationship suicide
Cos if you go, i go

~ Talk you down - The Script

Before

2008-10-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

With your empty heart and mine full of pain
We were sitting with our backs against the world

And the only chance we have of moving on
Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong
Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back before it all went wrong

~ before the worst - The Script

Some scars never fade

2008-10-16T07:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we don't learn
From our mistakes
Sometimes we've no
Choice but to walk
Away, away

Tried to break my heart
well, it's broke
Tried to hang me high
well, i'm choked
Wanted rain on me
well, i'm soaked
soaked to the skin.

Sometimes tears say all
There is to say

I've shared the pain
I've been holding on
The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along

~ The end where i begin - The Script

Love..

2008-10-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

Love is friendship on fire <3

~The Perfect Man

I'll keep waiting then...

2008-10-13T07:00:00.000-07:00

Hurt Vs. Injured - “Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.” - Lance Armstrong.

wanna know why?

2008-10-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

To this world I am unimportant
Just because I have nothing to give.
So you call this your free country
Tell me why it costs so much to live
Tell me why.

To this world I am unimportant
Just because I have nothing to hear.

~ Duck And Run - Three Doors Down

So true

2008-10-13T06:24:00.000-07:00

One day you'll get sick of
Saying that everything’s alright
And by then I’m sure ill be
Pretending just like I am tonight

I'll never let this go
But I cant find the words to tell you
I don’t want to be alone
But now I feel like I don’t know you
(jerk...)

Maybe if my heart stops beating
It wont hurt this much
And never will I have to
Answer again to anyone

~ Let this go - Paramore

Not gonna ever own what's mine

2008-10-09T08:17:00.000-07:00

I can't win
Not gonna ever own what's mine
go me.

Somewhere a clock is ticking...

2008-10-09T07:54:00.000-07:00

and i still haven't found you.
Time's wastin

My Rose

2008-10-06T02:58:00.001-07:00

Red petals fall to the ground,
Dying every second that goes by,
It’s been a year and you’ve not been found,
You left me here to cry.

I need to be alone,
So that no one can hear me moan,
I’m still waiting by the phone,
Remembering the scent of your cologne.

I don’t need a friend,
I need something that can mend,
My broken empty soul,
I need and want to feel whole.

I walk alone,
Cry and moan,
My dreams are torn,
I go and mourn.

A rose in my hand,
It’s for you,
I’m feeling something new,
A strange desire to be with you.

Dead or not,
Whether you fought,
Missing or lost,
Your still not here.

I start to sprint,
The petals are falling,
They stain the street,
I think I hear you calling.

I have the blade,
I slit my wrist,
The rose falls down,
Something in the mist.

The rose is red,
So is my blood,
You can see,
You’re running right at me.

You look worried,
Don’t be afraid,
It’ll be over soon,
I’ll be saved.

I’ll see you again,
I ask you one favor,
Take care of my rose,
I leave it with my lover.

This will end my suffering,
Don’t feel sad,
Bad timing I guess,
Don’t worry I’m not mad.
Please take care of my lovely dying rose.

Blinded

2008-10-02T05:12:00.000-07:00

I turn the music up so loud,
Until it hurts my ears,
I’m not sure how this helps,
For I still shred my tears.

Do not worry,
Lovesickness has no cure,
Except for when,
I am near.

Fragile person,
Do not fear,
I will protect you,
To me you are dear.

We will meet again,
Maybe at the pier,
When will we meet?
Maybe next year?

I miss you so,
Keep your eyes clear,
For I am just,
Standing right here.

Reality's shit

2008-10-01T03:10:00.001-07:00

Life sucks. Live with it. Shit. I hate that sentence. um.... ok so

i wanna leave off to a distant place far out in the unknown. A place not yet wrecked by civilization. A place that aint normal. Deserted axcept for wandering animals and unknown wonderful little creatures.

I wanna believe and be able to see fairies. (i'm not crazy) this is my opinion here. it's a blpg remember , duh.

I wanna dance my guts out and rock at it. I wanna have that wierd exhilarating feeling like what Edward has when he's running. (oh edward . ok now im just drifting..)

I WANT EDWARD so don't tell me i can't have him or he aint real coz f* u people. I can dream can't i. Exactly, no wonder u ppl hav suckish lives. I need a getaway k so do u. u guys r just too blind to bother finding one.

I wanna believe in things people find so hard to believe. like anythin rly. anythin good and incredible. Stuff to fixate my attention so that life can pass me without me even having to talk to you loserish peeps. you guys suck. no offence i mean seriously. I HATE THE WORLD! except for some of yall.

If i become emo. let me be emo. y else am i doin. i aint doin it to get attention. dont think that i'm doin that. ur just makin me emoer. im just a little distressed k. u dont see me cuttin myself like my freaky friends.

LEAVE ME ALONE i need space too u know. not ur support all the time.

I want music to fill the world.

I want peace

I want true love.

WTV. I want a getaway to a secret place. thats like my wish . (with edward cullen) places like hmm... u see my pic up top. is it purply with a deer wanaderin somewhere. yeah. places like that. or that twilit meadow... sigh.

I want what i want leave me be.

sorry

The reason

2008-10-01T03:02:00.000-07:00

hello ppl. Here is an answer for you. Might shed some light on a couple of things.

I will can't fall in love with you if you are my good friend. People don't see the logic in this. I will tell you why. If you're my good friend i won't be able to have those good friend experiences anymore. sure, i'll have something new, something more but i'll still miss the friend moments too much.

so feel good bout being friends. It's fun :D

The Old You

2008-09-29T08:14:00.000-07:00

I miss the old you,
We used to talk,
We used to laugh,
Whilst we walked,
But now silence.

You helped me up,
But you kicked me back down,
Now you hurt me,
You make me frown.

I hate you now,
I loved you then,
Why did you change?
I hate these men.

You were unique,
Sometimes strange,
People called you a freak,
But I didn’t want you to change.

You were special,
One of a kind,
But now that you’ve changed,
You’re out of my mind.

You left me waiting,
But you never came back,
You stayed the same,
You’re a pain in the neck.

You rocked my world,
I loved your smile,
But now you’re gone,
Stay for a while.

I don’t want you to go,
I’d miss you too much,
But now it’s too late,
You’re already gone.

dedicated to ~ my old friend - T ~sad it didn't work out~

Prom in 3 months.

2008-09-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

well not much goin on in my life as usual. u wanna read? ok.. um.. my good friend asked me 2 prom. coolies. But he aint the one. ps. Edward Cullen 4va! XD n e who gotta get on to my hw :C

My blog

2008-03-03T00:38:00.000-08:00

Helo. Check out my other blog if u want. www.xanga.com/LooFung =D more stuff. cya.

uh haha i dont use it no more sorry. can still check it out if u want though :S ?

PPL freaked out by our optimistic wierdness

2008-02-29T04:40:00.000-08:00

Well me and my bff sonali laugh at everything!!! and i mean everything! like one time we freaked out 2 yr 12's rob and pat. Well up on IT floor me and sonali were walking casually and she was sayin.

"You know whats wierd? I always get hit by doors, all the time!"
suddenly BOOM! she gets wacked by a door. Well knowin its sonali u wudnt rly be surprised now wud u? but she didnt say ow. instead...
"U see!!!" and i started laughin like mad. then the 2 guys behind us were like omg sry. Are u guys ok. then we both started laughin lol and we cudnt stop. We were like laughin so hard we had to lean against the wall slumping to the ground slowly as we laughed!!! then sonali! with her random reflexex wacked the cookie out of my hands. I stopped laughin and looked at the cookie.

"NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" i shouted dramatically.
"Sonali!" i screamed gesturin the cookie with both hands.
surprisingly we laughed again lol. then the 2 guys just walked away starin at us.
HAHAHA!

Next theres this boy in yr 7 with an afro. well we call him afro dude. LOL. he keeps starin at us now coz we r so wierd to him. And once i acted insane( not that i aint) ad swirled and was about to hit the poor guy. OOPS luckily he had like kiloler reflexex and became... JELLY-MAN! cool. now he's too freaked out lol. o well... we creep out most of he ppl we try to become friends with. LOL!

Mrs Cullen

2008-02-29T04:29:00.000-08:00

So my name's LooFung. not (mrs cullen) but hoping to b. sigh... im such a sado... 2 some ppl but i dont care i still love edward cullen. more than anyone in this world!!! that i know of i think. n e way jus wanna let u know y i act the way i do... its coz im OBSSESSED! He's a fictional character btw so im depressed.

o well. Who reads my blogs anyway? I have xanga if u wanna read. i got loads more stuff on coz had it longer. www.xanga.com/LooFung i hav an awesome friend and her name is Sonali. LOL she makes me laugh so damn much hahahaha! yea im a random girl... lil slow... mayb blur. but wtv thats y im so ... me. ha makes no sense. this is one heck of a random post huh.