sigh..

ok. Dec 10, 11, 12.. gona be one hella depressin times. Gona miss you guys. :'{ alot. well some of you guys... haha yeah loads of meanies out there. well thats life so what the heck. love you guys that im gona miss. so damn soon man! < 'C dammit why.

LOVES YOU SONALI gammit im gona miss u like hell

Thanks Dustin

woooo. problem solved. my quest for that song ( don't let go - crowned kings) is over. :) thnks to... Dustin!

If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything than it’s me

So sleep now, so deep in static

Drifting in the shadows

Hold me close to the fourwall headlights

And TV screens

I just want you to feel beautiful

For once in your life

~ JamisonParker

want this song

When it all comes crashing down,
And your world starts spinnin' round,
You feel like you've fallen from the clouds,
But you never hit the ground

So take this stretch of road,
We'll call it home,
Just run away with me tonight,
Just don't let go, of me

Can love like ours survive,
In such cold and uncertain times?
I know that if you only hold me tight,
We can make it through tonight

So let's run on down the interstate,
And across the sea,
Everywhere I go,
I want to take you with me

don't let go, of me
don't let go, of me
And I close my eyes,
And I think of you,
We're gonna make it babe,
We're gonna make it through
Just don't let go

Underneath black velvet skies,
Forever in your eyes,
I see reflexions of your light,
Just dance with me tonight

Over head the sky explodes,
And my heart it overloads
Throw your arms around my neck and don't let go

We'll take this stretch of road,
We'll call it home,
Just run away with me,
Just don't let go, of me

~ Don't let go - Crowned Kings

Whoever finds this song for me, i owe u. alot.
I can't find this song n e where... pls help me.

my escape

Escape never felt more like a loss

Tagged.

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Lock myself up, swear at myself, cry, sit cross legged and stare blankly at nothing for and hour of more with wet eyes, think about my mistakes, fall asleep after long stare coz it is rly tiring, wake up and be depressed again, maybe cry a little, then slap myself and get pissed, yell at myself and tell myself to wake up and snap out of it. Then i'll go look for him, give up on him, dump him, tell him all the reasons i was wrong bout dating him and tell him how much he sucks, then i'd walk away with a hoddy over my head and be alone before recovering listening to my ipod.

What will your dream wedding be like?
On a meadow or something peaceful like that, hardly any people there, the sky orangish - u know that time when the sun is not exactly setting but it aint bright just like mellow getting darker, should be trees, not some freakin retardedly heavy dress with that super long white trailing thing, simple dress thats still beautiful, nice music, no organs... those things sound dreadful to me... no sick food. Just me, my dream guy, super close friends, parents and my dogs... that's perfect..

On your wedding day, what would you like to see?
... uh, my future husband to be...
"... wait what the.. Where's my husband!?"
Lol that's funny.

Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Let's not think about it, yeah. The future's the future. It's pretty scary. hm.. to me the future is like walking up a flight of stairs, and you know how ur always scared you'll miss a step, coz when u do u stumble and your heart gets this super fast panging feeling, shocking, and you'll eventually reach the end of the stairs... so i guess we just gotta watch out for those miss steps along the way, eh. Unless they unexpectedly break under your feet. You just gotta brace yourselves for that. That's life.

What’s your ideal lover like?
I love edward cullen. but you know he's fictional so it's quite depressing. but i duno. A nice person? i don't like drugs or smokers. I'm attracted to shy guys... and i don't know why. hate liars and show offs. I like quiet people that can help you out with your problems and listen to you. and not judge you. I like someone i can feel equal with as in when i'm with that person we both connect and the world is just a distant nagging at the back of our heads. But nowadays... i'm attracted to the sight of guys in dark clothing, seeming dark(almost scary lookin) leaning against a wall keeping to himself. I wanna be with a dude like that and crack all those mysteries which hide behind his eyes.

i know i'm mad. but don't worry. I'm bein single and not mindin it.

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Just live life still obssessin over the dude becoming even more depressed by the week watchin him with the girl. until sometin dramatic happens and i'm forced to move on or i get a sudden change of heart. rare... yeah, i find things hard to let go of.

Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yea.

How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
um... nope got notin. my mind is blank, still at the bottom of the stairs.

Who are currently the most important people to you?
My parents and the people that can comfort me in my time of need as i go through this unexplainable phase.

Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
I dont know. Money can't buy happiness. and i guess having a lover is great. so i guess bein married. if we die broke. we die happy.

What’s the first thing you do every morning?
wake up.

Would you give all in a relationship?
depends..

If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one i love. how can one be equally in love with two?

What type of friends do you like?
friends that laugh and can console me no matter what.

What type of friends do you dislike?
Most friends... u know what i mean. close enough.

Are you a virgin?
yeah, why aren't you... the new generation nowadays is sad.

Have you ever lied to your parents?
Mum are you reading this...?
haha kiddin yeah i have. unfortunately.

Hint about him / her?
hint about what? what is this question talking about...

What phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?
What!?
Huuuuuuuhhhh?
say that again?
Holy sh**!
HOLY COW!
HOOOOOOOOOOLLLLYYYYYYY!
Why did u just tell me that?
DID I REALLY NEED TO KNOW?
you serious?

What is your current obssesion?
wolves, emo guys, music, faeries, odd things, neon lights, light graffitti, strange paintings, unexplainable colourful occurences, gardens, alone and thinking.

Who do you short text the most these days?
oh, are people supposed to text alot nowadays? ... oops.
yeah yeah. who cares about texting and phones. i don't.

Who do you miss alot now?
One of my best friends, and my dog Mac - RIP loofy loves you.

Best girl friends?
Donno. i had alot that left me at the last minute... hope that don't happen again. so i'm staying cautious.

Best boy friends?
no - one.

Favourite hang out place?
my garden, alone, twilight time, or a quiet meadow. away from civilization... or a place where i can close my eyes and feel that the world is going on with or without me. peace.

If you were to go out with a group of friends, who will you choose?
In this case... i'll stay unsociable. I'm not a kind of friend that can choose like that. sorry.

Made any new friends recently?
nope.

Do you like the person who tagged you?
*shrugs* maybe. why am i supposed to?

ughhh grrr.

BUAAAAAAAAGH!
Sorry just gotta type this. Shouldn't have come online today.... SHOULDNT HAVE READ THAT SH**

Too pissed to speak. typing instead. GOSH this is y i love being alone. I seriously admit, i really really really ----------- hate ------------ and ------------ for ----- becoz---- all such -------!!!!

sigh. Freakin hell. y do i sound emo!? i am not emo k. Well i don't think i am so y are all my post all corrupted. AHH. sigh

Chill dude chill. coolin. Wanna be alone. Don't wanna ever meet people like these ever again. I didn't even do n e tin! tried not to be involved with other people... but they always have to involve me somehow! What did i do . SHEESH

Ms Rao was totaly right today. With her whole people terrible sucks they r such. Yeah well life is so sh** im sorry. Love u sonali. Only one left for me. Shoot all u. >[ <(

dammit now im pissed and depressed. sorry im yellin at... some of u people that r good. UGH. so many problems. i like friends. but i also like to be alone. please leave me for now. c u guys soon k bye. pls pls pls... dudes, thnx for bein all awesome to me and all and pls don't let me make u sad k. Last thing i wanna do. Just seriously stay happy. :\

people are very mean nowadays... even the ones i don't know. (how the hell they know me. they shud go away.)

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Forgotten and waiting...

Like a princess

In a forgotten fairytale

Waiting for her prince...

~Dreamland

Another song i love <3

Lyrics | Paramore - Let The Flames Begin lyrics

Don't let your heart win

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...
Well I was wrong

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try... holding onto silly things, I never learn.

I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

~ That's what you get - paramore

Here we go again

And here we go again

With all the things you said

And not a minute spent

To think that we'd regret

So we just take it back,

These words and hold our breath

Forget the things we swore we meant

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright

Can't say I'm sad to see you go

Cause I'm not.

And here we go again

With all the things we did

And now I'm wondering

Just who would I have been

Forget the things we swore we meant.

~Here we go again - paramore

We are broken

I am outside

And i've been waiting for the sun

And i've seen worlds that don't belong

Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me

Coz we are broken

What must we do to restore

our innocence

And the promise we adored

Give us life again

Coz we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors

Coz i'd like to capture this voice

We're at war, we live like this

Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

~We are broken - Paramore

WeTheFreak

Hey dudes,
Check me out on youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/user/WeTheFreak

:D

@ Sonals

Awesome fun time at sonali's place.
We made 2 vids this time :D Yea but the 2nd vid aint quite finished. We still need to do the singing voice over. And i gotta find good tabs for the song. :( o well.


We did wierd stuff as usual. Stayed up till 4 am makin the vid. oops. Well it was fun.

Lol o yeah we watched High School Musical 3. And i thought it was pretty cool. We kept on laughin in the cinema... at random stuff and people were just like ... what the hell. HAHA but yeah. Loads of people are like "OMG ew... High School Musical is like... so GAY..." and i'm just thinking " Dude... just admit that u r secretly obssessed with it, coz i know that after school your just gona pay 10 bux to go and watch it. I am not fooled."

Sigh people now adays.
Lol and it's pretty funny to watch people's reactions when i reply to that and say "well i wanna watch it. I don't think it's gay. :P" and they get pissed and walk off.

And dudes... who cares what people say. I don't... well not always. But seriously don't let people control you coz u know that that's your opinion and not theirs so yeah. DEAL WITH IT.

YEAh in the video we were like immitating Lords of the Ring, Harry Potter and others. And being weird ^^. IT was AWESOME. But it sux that when posted on youtube the vid becomes rly blur. and the high qual link has disappeared...

And hell yeah i'm being the bad-ass version of Cho Chang. No offence to her. but yeah its for the vid and its pretty cool. :D check it out on youtube.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Euq95Vv0iqm

Good times good times. FUN

P.s: sonali... I'M DOLORES IN DISQUISE LOLOLOLOL.

safe place

You clean up so nice.

A gentle face I couldn’t recognize

There’s blood in your eyes

I knew that someone had to pay your price

Shelter, a safe place

I couldn’t find a way to escape

There’s blood on your face

I wish that there could be another way.

You kiss and make nice.

A gentle face with a big surprise

There’s blood in your eyes

I knew that I was going to pay the price

Shelter, isn’t safe

I couldn’t find a way to escape

There’s blood on your face

You couldn’t have it any other way.

Is this what it seems?

Am I make believe?

Watching through your eyes
I’m running out of time

~blood- sparklemotion

for a few hours

Come With Me

Into The Tree's

we'll lay on the grass

And let the hours pass

Take My Hand

Come Back To The Land

Let's Get Away

Just for one day.

Let Me See You Stripped Down to the bone

Let me Hear you Speaking Just For Me

Let me see you

Stripped Down to the bone

Let Me Hear you

Crying just for me

Let Me hear you speaking

just for me.

Metropolis

Has Nothing on This

You're Breathing in fumes

I taste when we kiss

Take My Hand

Come Back To The Land

Where Everything's Ours

For a Few Hours

~stripped - Shiny Toy Guns

Halloween

I wish every celebration was meant to be halloween...

lets see... my place was full of wierd people

My brother hung a doll by the fan which was pretty freaky

treak or treated for the night.
told scary stories,
watched scary movies,

went to the park round 11 and the park swings were scary. FREAKIN dark. (what happened to the streetlights) stayed there for bout 15 min then ditched the place and ran for it haha.

played tarots... god who knew they could be so precise... yes that did freak us out 2



Brandon and friends egged someones house coz they ignored us... we ran for it. like hell...

lol saw a few houses being toilet papered, lol then began continuously ringin bells of houses that dint give us candy... we ran for it, again. DING DONG DITCHIN IS FUN

started howling at Venus. talked bout this crazed man that lived in my friends neighbourhood... *shudders*

went to basketball court late at night. neighbourhood was so quiet. played truth or dare. talked bout secrets and stuff. had races. singin. slept at 3 am. lol woke up in the mornin at 9 and went to the park again.

Later Brandon, Sarah, my bro and I climbed up this hill. We had

to climb over the fence. I never knew what was behind it till now. i think it was out of bounds coz we heard an alarm go off somewhere at the top of the hill and ran back down. Those flood stairs are steep... ran into a bunch of ants lol and started screaming coz they were climbing up our arms and legs. We watched out for snakes. good thing we didnt see one. loads of mosqiuts. kinda freaky tho lookin down... we were so high.